I am still in disbelief every time I sit down to create a new vlog, blog or post about God. I never thought I would be here. Don't get me wrong, I have always had a belief in God but I believed in Him in my own way and quite a bit of the New Age way as well.
When I was a child I grew up in the church. We did the whole Sunday school and Youth Group thing. When I look back on those times, I don't look back in awe of God's mystery but I look back and remember fear. I would lay in bed at night terrified that I would burn in Hell for all eternity because I lied to my parents or snooped around in my sisters room. I didn't understand how a God who was supposed to love me so unconditionally would damn me to Hell or why a woman was to blame for many of the sins in the world. I was painfully shy as a child so I did not speak up or ask questions and instead allowed it to slowly build a wall within me that as soon as I had the choice, I left the church.
I maintained an open heart to the Heavens above and to God as our creator but as far as prayer or any type of devotion- that was non existent. When New Age beliefs entered into my life it grabbed ahold of my heart and I thought that I had found the truth. It felt so good to me that we are all gods and we live in a very loving and abundant Universe that always gives us what we desire. I fell deep into the teachings of Law Of Attraction and set out to create my dream life and live in my power.
However, I was never truly happy and always felt without. I constantly judged myself for not being more successful or further along in my. business. It was hard for me to enjoy the present moment and I felt extremely lonely. I knew there was more, something that I was missing and I was destined to find it.
Countless books, programs and classes later, I finally decided that in support of my mental health that I needed to take a break from the practices of Law Of Attraction. I began to unfollow and unsubscribe from everyone who taught these practices and even began unfollowing those heavy in New Age. At this time, I honestly felt that I would be back- much stronger and more powerful. I am happy to say I never went back but I am much stronger and powerful and it is all because I opened my heart to God.
It was like God had been trying to talk to me for years but I couldn't hear him because I was too busy trying to play god. The moment I pressed pause on all those beliefs and put my focus on rest was the moment I finally heard God talk. He invited me to begin to pray and to read the Bible. I hesitated for quite some time and his voice only grew louder. So loud that I finally answered.
When I received the Bible, I was amazed by how eager I was to dive in. I started with the book of John and found myself in tears as I learned how much God loves us. I learned that we are loved unconditionally and as soon as we ask for forgiveness and open our hearts to Christ, He comes running at us with arms wide open. God is so unbelievable. Unwavering in His love, His power and forgiveness.
The truth is, we are not gods. There is only one true God and that is our Father. It is only through Him that we can exist on this earth in pure abundance and only through Him that we are granted eternal life. All that He asks in return is that we love and honor Him. That's it. No manipulation, no force or control- just pure love.
If you haven't given your heart to Christ I invite you to ask Him to show you love. So many of us within the New Age claim to be truth seekers and honestly, seeking the truth will always eventually lead you to the Father. It is why many have been leaving the new age and becoming born again Christians.
Every Sunday I offer something called Worship Yoga. It is all about meeting the Lord on your mat through prayer, meditation and movement. I invite you to check out this video and see how it feels within you. If you feel it resonates please subscribe to my channel so you can flow with new videos every week. https://youtu.be/qhhfqhkaJXg
John 3, 16-21
For God so loved the world that he gave his only son, and that whoever believes in him shall not parish but have eternal life. For God did not send his son to the world to condemn the world but save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God's one and only son
John 6, 28-29
Then they asked him, "what must we do to do the work God requires'? Jesus answered, "the work of God is this, to believe in the one he has sent".
John 8, 12
When Jesus spoke again to the people He said, I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.